Busybusybusybusybusybusybusy like a bee! (2/22)

Goodness, how time flies when you're occupied!
Anyways! It's been a while, but I'm back and blogging.

Life is going pretty well, I suppose. Things are starting to fall into place now that Lent is upon us -- you'll see why soon enough. Before that, let's have story-time!
So it was the Tuesday of last week (2/16), right? I'm in the gym with my teammates when the topic of Mardi Gras comes up. And I'm like, "Mardi Gras? How random. When's that?" To which my teammates are like, "Um... Today?" And so I just stared at them and panicked. Not because I had missed my opportunity to pig out* but because Lent had crept up on me without my realization. Thankfully, I found out about Lent before it actually started, else I'd have missed Ash Wednesday Mass and potentially cried (though I probs. would've just felt crummy instead). But anyways, here is how Lent relates to life falling into place: for Lent, I've given up internet- and TV-related distractions. I could figure out where Blogspot fell into my plans, but I figured that this is pretty safe because I write anyways (and this is my eco-friendly journal). Besides, this is not like Facebook, which gnaws at my soul and time. (That I had to give up for Lent.) But yeah. With this new development, I have effectively cut down my procrastination time and am now (gulp) getting assignments started a week before they're due? What the heck?
But yeah. If only Lent were all year round... (Actually, that would be kinda sad. I'd be rather sad to not be able to rejoice, y'know? And I always look forward to the Easter Vigil Mass, which comes at the end of Lent. Hence Lent being year-round would not make me as happy as I falsely claimed.)

But yeah. It's exhilarating to get stuff done and to feel good about my work. But at the same time, I'm really busy (still). It's as if the work just keeps on coming no matter how much I get done. It's an endless cascade of work! Woewoewoe, sadface.
But I've had time to think about my life during these past days (regardless of my busy schedule). And I'm still kinda *sigh* about the whole I'll-probably-never-find-my-soul-mate thing, but I guess it's okay:

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat (or drink), or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing?
Look at the birds in the sky; they do not sow or reap, they gather nothing into barns, yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are not you more important than they?
Can any of you by worrying add a single moment to your life-span?
Why are you anxious about clothes? Learn from the way the wild flowers grow. They do not work or spin.
But I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was clothed like one of them.
If God so clothes the grass of the field, which grows today and is thrown into the oven tomorrow, will he not much more provide for you, O you of little faith?
So do not worry and say, 'What are we to eat?' or 'What are we to drink?' or 'What are we to wear?'
All these things the pagans seek. Your heavenly Father knows that you need them all.
But seek first the kingdom (of God) and his righteousness, and all these things will be given you besides.
Do not worry about tomorrow; tomorrow will take care of itself. Sufficient for a day is its own evil."

~Matthew 6 : 25 - 34

So yeah. I'm going to be fine, eh? I guess I should quit worrying so much and let life flow as it's going to flow. That passage is my favorite (I think... I always go back and forth between this and the entirety of 1 Corinthians 13). And so I'll end with some lyrics from one of my favorite songs:

先読みのし過ぎなんて意味の無いことは止めて
今日はおいしい物を食べようよ
未来はずっと先だよ
僕にも分からない

~光 by 宇多田 ヒカル

February 22, 2010
7:37 PM

two-ten-ten

So! Today is February 10th, and I've had (due to extremely cold -- but lucky -- circumstances) three snow days in a row. And of course, I have made do with procrastinatory deeds instead of actually doing work. This is so predictable of me. -_-

Anyways, I have kept busy with visiting my friends who live down the hall and with lovely snow-related procrastination (like sledding and snow-fights... ish). As well as other methods of distraction, of course (including an extremely overdue reunion with my PS2, which had been neglected for six months).

But de todos modos, two holidays are coming up! And they would be:
Chinese New Year!
Valentine's Day!

So it kinda sucks to be without family for Chinese New Year. But what can I do, right? I mean, no amount of wishing will get me any closer to my family. I'll just take it as any other day, I guess. Meh... It's just a little depressing to actually write that this will be the first Chinese New Year without any family. Sigh.
And then there's Valentine's Day, which makes it like a double-whammy. So it's like, you have no family AND no one special with which to spend your Chinese New Year/Valentine's Day. Ehhh... I guess it's no biggie, though. I mean, I've never been one to say, "Omigosh, Valentine's Day without someone is social suicide. I would rather consume arsenic than go on alone!" So it's not like I'm one of those death-without-a-partner kind of people. Still, it would be nice to be able to spend time with someone in a special way, right?

Waitaminnit. I've never spoken much about this topic, have I?
Well, my view on this is as follows (more or less, depending on the time of day): I would really like to find someone with whom I can share my life -- happiness, sadness, embarrassments, and difficulties. I'd like someone to hold at night. I'd like someone to see when I first wake each morning. I'd like someone to hold my hand in the park. I'd like someone to be silly with me when I get tired. I'd like someone to laugh at my jokes -- or at me when I make terrible ones. I'd like someone to tell me I'm being stupid when I overthink things. I'd like someone to tell me that I have smelly breath in the morning and that my feet stink after a hard day's work (if they do, in fact, do so. I don't make a habit of smelling my feet, you know).
HOWEVER, I don't need someone to complete me. I've managed for all of my life, so it's not imperative for me to find my other half. Still, I'd kinda be a little sad to spend the rest of my life alone... -_-
Bleak existence, meh... But I think I should get used to this concept because I have certain parameters for my soul mate... Parameters which limit me to to a tiny (if existent) pool of people, eh...
But yes. These are my musings for the night as I procrastinate some more.

Ciao

10:31 PM
February 10, 2010